Bipolar Update
Jul. 29th, 2015 02:34 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
grimrose_eilwynnI have a strange new symptom I've been experiencing.
Let me just say that except for this symptom, I am very healthy. I'm emotionally stable and in complete control of my faculties. My flights of fancy are confined to imagination and I'm not depressed or irritable at all. That's what makes it so weird.
I've been having hallucinations at night. When I'm lying in the dark and almost asleep, weird things come up before my vision. I see everything, from people to insects to screens. I also hear things like voices and laughter, and feel brushes against my face. It's very creepy and it's very scary.
The strangest part of it all is, it only happens when I'm lying in the dark and almost asleep. Never in the daytime, and never when I'm fully awake.
I think it might be some kind of sleep disorder. The antipsychotic I'm on can cause sleep disorders, and I've experienced sleep paralysis and sleep walking while on it previously. It all started when I doubled the dosage of this medication, because on the previous dosage I was experiencing anxiety and delusional thoughts.
So if I halve it, I'll experience symptoms. If I double it, I'll experience side effects.
I called the psychiatrist at my college. He said we could try an entirely new antipsychotic, but he wants me to be back at school near him before we go that far. So for now, he's lowering my dosage, but not going so far as to halve it.
We'll have to see what that does. Most psychiatric treatment is really a kind of experimental shot in the dark like this.
Let me just say that except for this symptom, I am very healthy. I'm emotionally stable and in complete control of my faculties. My flights of fancy are confined to imagination and I'm not depressed or irritable at all. That's what makes it so weird.
I've been having hallucinations at night. When I'm lying in the dark and almost asleep, weird things come up before my vision. I see everything, from people to insects to screens. I also hear things like voices and laughter, and feel brushes against my face. It's very creepy and it's very scary.
The strangest part of it all is, it only happens when I'm lying in the dark and almost asleep. Never in the daytime, and never when I'm fully awake.
I think it might be some kind of sleep disorder. The antipsychotic I'm on can cause sleep disorders, and I've experienced sleep paralysis and sleep walking while on it previously. It all started when I doubled the dosage of this medication, because on the previous dosage I was experiencing anxiety and delusional thoughts.
So if I halve it, I'll experience symptoms. If I double it, I'll experience side effects.
I called the psychiatrist at my college. He said we could try an entirely new antipsychotic, but he wants me to be back at school near him before we go that far. So for now, he's lowering my dosage, but not going so far as to halve it.
We'll have to see what that does. Most psychiatric treatment is really a kind of experimental shot in the dark like this.
